sick. ahahaha. got a day off my hectic lifestyle, but im not apparently as happy as i thought i would be. there are a lot of things on my mind right now, some things that are confusing me, i have told many lies about it, and its that, that causes me to tell so many lies to everyone around me. will i ever be forgiven? i do not have the courage i need to tell, for i can almost forsee the outcome and what's he's going to say, since i have already told him about this before. seriously, i have did something really really wrong, or should i say many many things, and its troubling me and hindering me from functioning.

everyday i go to school, i put on my mask, i shall smile and laugh like usual, but is that who i really am? for i dont feel like im the one to feel depress or anything. give me courage, the courage i need to finally, let my father and family know about it.